Sunday, 30 August 2015

It's been almost a year since I posted on here, don't know where the time has gone.  I have serious respect for actual bloggers who manage to keep a blog on top of everything going on in their lives. So much has changed since October 2014, I don't even know where to start.

I have finished college, something I thought I couldn't wait for. Now though, I just wish I could do it all over again. I should warn you I'm a very negative person, and now look back on the last couple of years with regrets and all the things I wish I'd done and honestly my four years in university were a waste - I had a lot of fun but have come to the realisation I don't want a job in zoology. Zoos - cruel (my personal opinion). I don't want to work for an organisation like the ISPCA because I just couldn't deal with the animal cruelty, it would definitely be to much for me.

I had so much hope for when I finished uni, what an idiot. I'm now working in a job that makes me want to die. Yes I am very dramatic, but I'm really not happy with where I am in my life right now. The only thing getting me by is my plans for a years time - going to work my arse off and save enough money to go back to college and do what I actually wanted to do from the begining; makeup artistry and beauty therapy, (pretty much what the majority of young girls are doing in college these days!) .. which is why I feel like I should just delete this blog. I had intended on starting a fashion and beauty blog but lets be real, I failed! Even though I'd still love to, this year I will be saving every penny and so there won't be much buying of clothes and beauty products. Even so, I think I'll keep this here.

 My own place to vent my frustration and worry, because it's the only place I can.